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complicated as my life seems, it all boils down to complete nothing. yeah nothing.
studies. track. friends. life.
studies. the first thing that comes to mind, is that i screwed up every bit of my french test today. yeah every possible bit that you can squeeze out of it. well i dunno the actual outcome, but in any case, i didn't feel good after that. usually i would go home with a clear mind, telling myself that i've done my best... hey now, i suddenly don't feel like that anymore. perhaps its cuz of last-minute mugging again. why? cuz of iLearning. why? cuz i took very long, and took up saturday and sunday as well, leaving no time for revision. why? cuz track took up last last week's sat and sun. why? cuz there's competition. why? why? why? argh pointless to go on, and i can't blame track, it's what i wanted anyway, and i want it and i'm still with it.
track. yeah probably the most prominent thing now is my right pelvis joint. bleah. it's loads better, but due to the strain i put on my left leg today to relax my right one, now it's starting to hurt. walao oh heavens plz leave me alone, i'm done worrying for french and now i'm worrying for track. looks like i reeeaally can't make it for junior meet. aarrgghh. sadded. even though i know i'll make a fool out of myself, i still wanna run. hahaha. thats me alright.
friends. nothing much as happened to this. well i just wanna say a big THANKYOU to all my friends and buddies out there, without you all i wouldn't have made it this far today. emotionally. you all were my confidence, my advice, my emotional "punching bag", and blah blah blah. sounds very feminine. haha forget about it, just a great thanks... =)
life. argh life. life, life, life. never seem to get enough of it. sometimes i wonder. what am i studying for? for my future of course. why is my future so worth studying for? cuz you'll live a great life if you get a stable job. does a stable job always give you a great life? ehh... no. but then somehow i feel like studying. bleah. sometimes i wonder. what am i running for? for track. why is running so impt for track? so that you improve and you get to represent sch to win awards. bleah. winning isn't that impt. but i guess that's one big thing that keeps my track flame alive. other than that, i just wanna stay healthy, and keep my body in shape. bleah again.
lame shite. that's what i am. sighhh...
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