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haha sorry people. i know it's been stagnant. well alright now that i really need to blurt alot of stuff out, so... yeah. here goes...
it's the end of week 5. this coming week is week 6. the following week will be week 7. that's the common tests. and now, i'm already feeling like dying. track comps, homework, projects, assignments, drama scripts, prefect work... just doesn't seem to fit into one guy's schedule. well seems to many that i'm alright, cuz basically i'm just laughing matters off into thin air. but yeah, i'm really sick and dying. of course i thought talking to my mom would help but in the end, she went on saying that it's my track comps which took up my weekend time, and you should skip those comps, that's your problem... oh whatever... track's one of my two priorities and no way am i gonna quit or skip anything. that's her problem if she says it that way. yeah sure, that talk was a hell of alot "comforting". i don't really give a shite anymore. then again, putting off a good front in school doesn't really help either, but just that... i don't know how to change. it's just... my way of life in school. haha. makes it much easier to get by. the only problem starts when i reach home, uhhuh and everything pours out of my mind.
seems to me that nobody understands my plight. only a select few who have been really caring and helpful. i owe linan alot. he's like a damn great friend during this period of time. haha... the other time i was studying, and somehow the workload just seems to be increasing and increasing... and so i kinda broke down and went all violent at home... argh argh argh. went breaking stuff like my pencils, and just hit everything i saw. well luckily i didn't face the com... then i was thinking i gotta stop myself, but then it didn't really seem to take much effect. then after that i went online and told linan this, and for the hell in the world he was the heaven, and helped me overcome it. haha i tore up my geog precipitation notes, and he helped me photocopy a new set. that was great. haha linan, thanks for being a great buddy. i'll vote for you in the prefect elections if you get in. haha.
track and field. my leg has recovered and now in full operation. so i started taking up 800m training a few weeks ago. seems like 800m isn't fun. i hate stamina training... argh. well then i think i changed my running style already... from the full sprint to the constant stride, and yeah man i'm gearing up. but somehow i think my hamstring's gonna go anytime. haha. and now these days i'm going to the gym to train. figures, if i wanna improve faster than everybody i gotta work harder than everybody as well. so that takes up my sunday afternoon. well it takes a load off my mind too. talking about track, i finally got myself a track jersey for out-of-school training! yay! a nike one, blue on top and white below. fits perfectly and very comfortable. haha. well it cost me quite a bit. 40 dollars i think. figures i'm not gonna buy any track stuff for the time being. =P
now i'm just sitting in my study, in front of the com, early in the morning at 8.50. planning to work on my chinese project before i crack up and start smashing things again. yesterday i got chided by the whole family for being such a spoilsport, choosing to do homework instead of going out and relaxing, and being in low spirits everytime i reach home after school. walao. they simply don't understand don't they? telling them won't help. what i'll hear for a reply would be telling me to be in high spirits and smile all the time. yeah man, i'm dead sure i can do that. lame shite. curse the world.
never mind. i shall endure. the moment common tests are gone i'm free. and it's only 2 weeks away. argh jonlim you gotta hang on. sometimes i feel like i need a dosage of inspiration. haha. so crucial to me. makes me work hard. argh. and thanks again, linan.
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