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yay. only a week more. but i'm dying already!!! what the hell...
the past week of utter studying, mugging and stress management has been smooth, but now it has entered the danger zone - argh the weekends. heavy mugging comes into operation. and for the hell in the world i'm slowly losing faith in myself. walao.
there goes. i started with physics, at 8am yesterday. supposed to end at 12noon. okay a 4 hour timeslot seems fair enough, i thought i could finish it then. BUT WHAT DO I KNOW, I ENDED AT 4PM. freak. 8 hours. 8 freaking hours. and i wasted damn lot of my time. i'm BEHIND TIME on my studies. shit shit shit. aw well. die.
argh stress is closing in on me, choking me up, slowly enveloping me, silently, stealthily, and for goodness' sake i can't do anything 'cept to shut up and wait for this week to pass. i dun wanna screw up my common test. neither do i want to crack up and act like a fool smashing things up, in the end getting it all scrunched up in the head. WHAT DO I DO? I can't just wait there anymore, gotta do something, and fast...
or maybe i should just wait for this week to pass, then it's ALL OVER. yeah ALL OVER. the sound of it makes me go wild. but not now. i can't think about this or i'll lose my drive. shit. i'm just so lost. well well well well, i gotta calm down. don't act stupid nor smart. just be normal. my mind ain't gonna play mind-games with me, oh no it don't. i'll shake the probs off like ants on my leg. swish swosh. but heck, it's still there.
i'm due to breakdown anytime now. that's why i've prepared Project R. 1st june awaits.
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