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I shan't really mention anything about studying past this sentence - it's what we've all been doing and it gets no more interesting as that. From here on it's a hundred-day long struggle to the finish, and all we've got to do is to perfect what we've been doing for probably fourteen whole years of schooling.
Life after June, and after the CTs, has slowed down quite incredibly, but at the same time it's tensing up a lot. I guess I'm contented for my results, and I'm really thankful for what I have right now. It just seems funny, because while it feels comfortable going to school everyday for lessons and studying steadily, these days are also accompanied by a sense of unfounded impatience; I guess I just can't wait to see what's around the corner.
School gets scary at times because people are all going into a frenzy and while you can't help but feel amazed at all this energy and how it's affecting you (either you get driven or you get driven up the wall), there's this little tinge of ugliness in the fact that people are withdrawing into themselves, or into their own circles. Suddenly you don't see familiar faces anymore, or these familiar faces don't recognize you anymore too. But as long as friends are around I guess there's really no cause for concern - they're but another strong reason why I still truly want to come to school!
I find myself reminiscing and missing a lot of things. Like how 09A01C had to go for this really uncomfortable-sounding bellydancing civics module but it eventually turned out to be quite fun - eventually qiwen vanessa and I stayed back at the studio to dance around a bit, and I guess that really completed the day; Well, dance is but one of the things I dearly miss. Places like the council room (which has been sadly locked away to prevent us from catching a dastardly flu), people like old classmates, councillors, friends whom I never knew how I met them, they're all climbing back to me slowly, and it's quite painful to realize that once the A levels are gone, there's so little time to try and retain what you really value and hold close to you. So I've got to simply cherish all the time left, and not let Sloth get the better of me.
In the end, it's your own actions and their consequences that are the supreme judges determining what kind of person you are. No one else can provide a judge as strong - all a matter of choice. Just got to keep going!
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